It's seven, it's eight, it's nine, it's ten thirty . . .

My Fitbit watch's time changed but I'm no hurry

There is a winter storm warning since early this morning

It was hard to get up, I was still yawning

Every week my daughter gets her overnight pass

From the treatment facility where she is at 

She phoned just now, “are you coming to get me"

I said, it's snowing bad outside, I can't, I'm sorry.

“Okay,” she said and then hang up

I could not say bye, she heard enough

She is upset, I will make it up

Today, instead, I can catch up

I can sing, play with dogs, cooked a one-pot meal

Take my time to do, enjoy, and feel

The pleasure of being alone doing what I like

Without feeling bothered by my worrying psyche

You may have guessed my teens are away

Once again they had wandered and come astray

Both are in youth services now where they can't run

To places where they may do self harm

I get a break, a should rejoice

I should not cry, I have a choice

To be thankful that we are at least safe

We are still lucky, and not harmed by earth quake

And here is what I made today.

In 2011, I was diagnosed with Stage 1 Triple Negative Breast Cancer. After bilateral mastectomy and chemotherapy, I started my journey as a woman who is surviving. I am proud I am almost four-years- in-remission. In 2017, I can declare myself as an official breast cancer survivor.

This month, I learned that one of my supporters is now undergoing treatment for metastatic breast cancer. At least four years ahead of me, and who had only stage 0 to begin with, we are all surprised she jumped from 0, to on remission, to being survivor, to stage 4. I feel crushed and I worry about myself now as well. What if my cancer comes back?

Perhaps it is time to switch to an organic diet. But can I afford it?

This month, I am lucky enough to have some money set aside to experiment. I will try to invest on my health with organic food. Maybe this organic food diet will save me money later by not paying for medical bills and co-pays instead.

At the end of the month, I will have a hint if I can afford to stay on this diet. I will post how much I have spent. 

Wish me luck. Better yet, would you join me in this experiment?